hey bloggies..
im glad where i am now and im glad the destiny im going too!
babes.. im not feeling that good lately.. im not sure why im not sure what.. im feeling a lil bit strange.. im happy for two seconds and naaaaaaahhh for another 10 minutes... and im happy again...
do i hate this feeling? yea very much! im not sure if anyoneelse has experienced this before...
this is kinda mixture of feelings.. theres guilt inside it, theres happy, theres morrow... theres sorrow,, worryyyyy, excitement, missing something... omg im gonna need to pull the rubberband on my left wrist 100 times... but it didnt really makes me feel better.. i still need to express by talking and writing is still the best.. i was thinking if i should publish this post... I did not think i had to initially, but looking back again, hey, im just merely a 24 year-old and its i bet its normal to not feel good all the time..
I felt a lil bit better, after talking to a veeeeerrrrrryyyyy good friend of mine, dayang iqliema. I was expressing what i felt (not everything of course.. :P) and what she said meant a lot to me...
"Diyana, hahah i totally feel and understand you, but u know what, the last two years if we feel the same way, we were not aware of it at all. and being a sanguine, we just wanna go everything on impulse. But now, we feel these feelings, the very same one, we are aware of it, and deep inside we know what to do, its just that we procastinate things we know we need to do. Isnt' it great that we now understand our feelings so much better nowadays? its just that we procastinate? "
And we both laughed out loud... :) and now, im smiling to myself.. isnt it great? yea peeps, im feeling strange and i think i know what to do.. i just knew... gosh, i think my sanguinity is taking me far away.. and i need to get my cholericness back! because i know, im more in control when im in choleric mode, im more organized, i know what to do, i know what im saying, im taking charge of everything. My room is gonna be cleaner and neater, my weekends are gonna be more exciting with full of fun fun fun activities, my schedule will be more and more on the better side. my work will be more cheerful, and the best thing i can be a better Diyana.. the sanguine choleric ones! Because why, because i know i can work BETTER when im ORGANIZED,NEAT,SCHEDULED!!!!!!!!!!!! (gosh is this choleric or melan? whateva.. i know myself, i know... )
Ok, Diyana, im giving myself sometime to calm down, and there you are......im coming back!
love,
daiSy